Gale of the Malestrom

My absolutions unsettled 
like the gust of a maelstrom 
Against the sandstone.
But, 
Where do we go? 

If not closed casket, 
I’ll barricade the past
Like a capstone.
That headstone simply reminds 
Me of what your life  holds
Nothing;
It's null and void just like those goals
You fold under.

Saturate the walls 
As if paints thrown, 
With that nail gun you paid for
Simply put;
Fuck what you stand for. 

I’ve learned the best kept secret is self preservation; 
And here 
I’m marking all the angles.

Isosceles beyond geometry,
Because
When two sides of equal length 
link;
There’s a line you might find 
We will cling to; 
If one needs to. 

It’s like that common ground 
That holds us down 
When ends don’t meet. 
But we’re out of sync; 
You’re out of touch 
And I give no fuck. 
For what!?!

Time after time I've tried.
Kindness is the crime that I pay for 
Like free labor.
Emotions pattern behaviors. 
Anger waivers drastically.
I tend to act irrationally
Not you but I dive 
As if hands tied. 
That head on collision 
In hindsight I caused it
I get it. 

But then it 
Hits me boom. 
Subscriptions of premonitions
Uplift me.
Their gifted on delivery 
Like a prime day deal.

Then the real lies phase commences. 
You know I realize that real lies 
Are painted and printed 
Handed to visitors
Those flyers at a bible convention. 
It's off putting. 

If I treat this like a business interest 
I’ve invested in it. 
And you've captured my attention
So I'll give it.
Not your typical collection of pretty pictures.
You know the bitchs get it 
Cause like a dog in heat 
She's gonna cause a scene.

Well here's your actions
And I could easily blast 
Uncased in 4k 
what's done in the dark 
May just be revealed. 

Then again
I won't adhere to such tactics.
That's a waste of my happiness.
Traces of battery acid, outline the
Fabrics, 
The counters 
And hand baskets.
So when you touch your face 
That look will change
It exposes the ugly things
You long to bring.

Such a shame 
But it is what it is. 
Dasvidaniya.
Your reign ends here