Throwaway (Words Unspoken)

From the moment I wrote this,
It seemed to be hopeless.
Like makeup 
Though cased,
It still fixes mistakes.

I've come 
Face to face 
Safe to say
Trapped and replayed.

I'm not here to confront you 
Just meet me half way. 
Time matters; 
With all the hours 
I've invested.

With every lesson gained 
from this. 
It’s changed the course 
Of my direction. 

You were so perfect.
The way you showed your imperfections
But now, the more I know, 
The more I grow. 

Time changed the things we’d 
Say;
To the way  we’d think. 

And the way I feel and live 
With each and 
Everyday.
I Get it?

So when orchids die, wither 
And leaves love diminished. 
I swore when I proposed,
I’d hold on and uplift you.

But soon with transition 
Shift; 
Fuck you I'm ending this
Fuck that chick
Roadside pick
Yea; I'm done with this shit.

I have to wonder 
Was it all for nothing 
Cause somethings rumbling 
From deep within. 
Every argument leads to 
A hypnotic binge.

My hearts heavy 
And the weight 
Of the world has shifted,
From shoulders to my 
Underbelly. 

You tried to bag and drag 
The rubble to 
Garbage bin, trash it.
Throwaway the ways, 
You led my world astray. 

I never thought that I would see the day. 
I’ll just take the stuff I had 
Bag it up 
Today
There’s nothing more to say.

Still with my pride in intact 
Without a second thought. 
I will tie it up,  
And throw it all away. 
There’s nothing more to say.